Because there’s always reasons not too

Phew! I didn’t realise how long its been inbetween posts with you. A couple of things happened, my computer went kapupt and even though I went out and got a new one within a day or two, I couldn’t face sitting down to work at a new machine, you know? Everything would be different, would need set up and I just didn’t want to face it.

And Easter came and I started eating chocolate again after 3 and half weeks off it! And I was just like so what? And then because I had guests I decide dto just take some time and be present with them and that was great but I rode that avoidance deep into this this week too.

And I realised that even though I wasn’t working, wasn’t writing, wasn’t connecting or creating – it was all I was thinking about. Or rather I was thinking about all the things I wasn’t doing and working up a good maelstrom of chaotic thinking.

And then I was distracting myself with my phone and an Oprah magazine article came up by Martha Beck about Spiritual Nourishment. I thought I’d have a read to distract myself from all the things I wasn’t doing.

Well, it was just the thing I needed- isn’t that always the way?

Martha wrote about something she’s read by Eckart Tolle who was writing about a verse from the Bible. And now I’m sharing it with you, don’t you love how that works, knowledge gets shared all around the world like this.

The verse was quite a famous one about Be still and know I am God. Martha shared that Eckart wrote that we could meditate on every single word or phrase in that short sentence. Be. Still. Know. I am. God.

Every single piece is a source of Spiritual Enrichment and Nourishment.

And reading it, I could feel my connection to Higher Source come back on line.

Be. Still. Know. I am. God.

Just those first two words. Be. Still.

Breath in on the Be. Breathe out on the Still.

And what else I realised was that eating crap was out of alignment with who I wanted to be and I had blocked my connection by going back to chocolate and cake and such rubbish.

I’m not saying you can’t eat chocolate and connect to your Higher Self, I’m saying for me right now, I can’t because its affecting my connection.

Maybe once my health is cleaned up and I’m feeling right in my body I’l be able to have a Dairy Milk again but the addictive need that had me gnawing my hands off when there wasn’t any in the house is a barrier to my connection.

I get addiction, booze and food are my two worst numbing choices. But I’ve danced with others too. And that’s okay.

What I know is that my choice to be my best self and live the life I want to live is served by me being clean in my eating and drinking habits. Not necessarily tee-total all the time but for now? Yes.

We choose things because we have a need to numb. To not feel. This becomes an identity: workaholic, chocoholic, alcohol problem, drug addiction, porn, sex, exercise, the choices are unlimited.

I’ve met with people who had obsessive cleaning habits and of course shopping habits.

None of these things are bad in and of themselves unless you give away control to them. And that’s what we do, we give away our power, our ability to be in control of our minds and bodies and we learn to be helpess in the face of the thing we choose to help us feel better. And now it makes us feel rotten.

We make adaptations to how we live thinking they are lifelines but they turn out to be manacles that chain us.

The wonderful thing is we can set ourselves free at any moment.

We simply choose to be different. A new identity.

Your current lived reality is created by the identity story that you tell yourself.

Its not a fact, its not set in stone, it’s not ‘just the way we are.’

We can choose to change. To be a different version of ourselves.

Live from our soul identity and not the one we learned through harsh lessons and adaptions to survive.

Return to the original blueprint, its still within you.

Soul Identity Reclamation – that’s what I do with my clients. I guide them into dropping the current story and to reconnect to their truth and live from that.

And that’s what I do for myself too. Every day, I make the choice, sometimes I make the right one, the one that feels good in the long term. To be my best self, to live in my soul identity. And even though there’s no room for chocolate or wine in this identity, life is so much sweeter, brighter, freer.

Change the story you’re telling yourself, choose yourself.

Love,

Cynthia xx