Everything I know, everything I believe, everything I write, everything I do in the work with clients comes down to three core principles and they inform how I live my life and the message that is always embedded in my work.
And today, I realised I’d not been living up to them all the way. Because it’s time for me to step up in life but I’ve been hiding from it.
Today, I got a message from one of my mentors about a high level coaching programme she’s offering right now that I wanted to sign up to and I knew it would be expensive but I hoped it would be ‘affordable expensive’ not ‘out of reach expensive.’
I didn’t know how much it would be but I knew it would be a challenge regardless not just for the investment but also I wasn’t sure I was ready but I knew I wanted this, needed it and I felt mostly committed if I could get in.
‘mostly committed!’ Is there such a thing?
Because yes, mostly but there was that part of me saying ‘Nope, not for you, you’re not ready for this, its too big, too powerful, you’re too small. Don’t be silly, you’re not even in the same ballpark as the other people in this programme.’
Yikes! That critical little voice knew exactly where to strike, as it always does.
Especially when I’m looking to step up to the next level of being me, being more me in my work and life.
Have you noticed that, when you’re ready to step up, the insecurity and fear intensifies. When you’re about to upgrade a part of your life, to take action on something – there it goes!
And right now, everything is fine, nice. I’m writing and connecting with people every day, I’ve got my clients, I’ve got everything I need at this level.
But I want to go further. I want to reach more people with my message. I want to have a bigger impact, to live a life that matters.
And I realised that to be completely honest, I’d gotten complacent. Comfortable with where I’m at. Writing about doing more but not actually doing anything to support that. I’m sitting here waiting for that big, bold vision I’ve painted in my head and in my journal to come knocking on my door just like I used to once sit waiting for rescue from my life (Rescue back then looked like winning the lottery or meeting a wonderful man to take me after from it all!)
I even wrote a blog years ago about having to mount my own damn rescue. And I did. And now here I was waiting for my saviour to come looking for me and knock down the door to transform my life once again.
And the message this morning detailing the cost of the programme was much more challenging than I expected. Not because its not worth it, it totally is, but because I was thinking small, inside my safety zone and I because it was so big I thought, well, that’s out, I can’t do that right now, I haven’t got the money to invest in myself at that level.
Whoa! What the fuck am I thinking!
I stopped and my core principles came to mind (thank God I think about this so often it’s a big neural connection in my mind) – don’t you love the way I mix a little bit of brain science in? 😉
- Loving Yourself Comes First
- Change Your Life by Changing Your Thinking
- Everything Starts Within
And here I am rejecting myself, rejecting my principles, rejecting the work I do with other people.
BullShit. No Way, that was not happening. I decided a long time ago to install the belief that I only ever move forward. No backward steps. No back sliding happening here. I know and trust those principles with my life.
I’d had a childhood imprint of the ‘one step forward, two steps back’ maxim embedded deep in my mind once, actually for much of my life, and so I saw it happen over and over again, one step forward, two back. No more. I changed that fucker, I rewrote it in my head. Now I only move forward, never backwards.
But I realised, I might not have been moving backwards but I’d somehow, inadvertently starting staying in the same place.
What had I been thinking? I’d had little to no awareness of it.
Now I knew and that had to change.Where do I start?
That’s what today is for, reflection, asking for guidance and moving forward.
And the wonderful thing about this mentorship message is that its jolted me into a total awareness of my complacency, of being stuck in my comfortable position of writing about the big life I want to lead whilst not actually doing anything about it.
In the next few hours, days and weeks you’re going to start seeing more of me, as I offer online programmes, new ways for you to access HypnoTherapyCoaching and the Change for Life programme and whatever else I think of to do that feels good and right to me to offer you.
It’s time to step up, as Brene Brown would say, ‘It’s time to get into the arena.’
If you do one today today, watch the Brene Video, it’s a gamechanger!
And I may not make it into the mentorship programme this time but I’m damn sure I’ll be in a position to say yes to it on the next go round.
What are you saying No to in your life without thinking about why you’re saying no to what you want, without figuring out how you can say yes?
It’s not over til it’s over.
You can always find a way when you really want something.
Start within. Figure out what you want and take the aligned action that comes next.
That’s all you have to do. Take the next step.
No attachment to outcome. No doubt that things always work out perfectly for you.
That’s what I’m doing.
PS. If you’ve been stuck, feeling like you’ve been living the same day over and over and its no fun anymore, if you’ve fought weight issues, depression, anxiety, addiction, or simply a feeling of general dissatisfaction with how your life is unfolding for you, and you feel like you’ve tried everything and nothing has worked. It’s natural to feel that a solution is almost impossible.
That’s part of what keeps the problem in place.
But real lasting change is possible.
Think how it would feel achieving your goals with far less resistance, whether it’s dropping excess weight, gaining freedom from depression and anxiety, being a rockstar in your business or career, or excelling in your personal relationships. You can do it, you have no fears about staying stuck and not moving forward anymore.
See yourself fully present and grounded, living with total fulfillment and satisfaction with how life is unfolding for you, with no regrets, as you carve your own path forward, moving forward always forward, no looking back .
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